Well, its time for me to take my dog to the vet and have him put to sleep.
I cant stand the thought and have prayed about it...even asking for some mercy and hoping he would just die in his sleep.
Well, after crying a river of tears, looking at his puppy pictures and seeing what a good life he had.....then looking at him now, cleaning up his mess , seeing that he tries to eat, but cant; I have decided he needs to be sent off to what I call doggie heaven.
The only mercy God can give is to me, not him. If my dog finally goes on his own, it will be after an entire system break-down. His neurological system is short-circuiting, his digestive system is following. He can still see and hear well enough, but for how long? It is better tha he goes now, with a little help.
Hubby gave him to me on our first Valentines day 14 years ago......right about this time. I am saddened and a little sick to my stomach, but I have to do what is best for him and not me. My poor little guy cant bounce or jump or even cuddle up without hurting. He falls, he groans while he sleeps.....he used to be so loveable and fun and now he is miserable. That is not fair.
Oh ya'll..this sucks. If you pray, please pray that I dont have a melt-down. I know...seems silly, but he is so special to me.
I know I am a big dopey wimp and if anybody makes fun of me...so help me, I wont be wimpy anymore. Have some decency for Dinky's sake. (DInky is my dog)
Thanks.
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"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Oh, I am trying. Its just so tough. I try to be all "dont push me around...I'll get you." But I am really just a big cornball softie. I guess I act tough so I dont get pushed around.
Thanks for your regards.
-- Edited by Moldy at 11:53, 2008-05-07
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"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
It's hard to loose a member of the family Moldy .... And I think deep down you know the best thing for Dinky .... Just know that your Internet family is here for you ...
Moldy, I am so sorry. It is awful to have to make that decision to let him go. But you are showing your love for him, just as you have for the last 14 years, and I think on some level he will know that.
I just cried with you, hon. Be okay, and know that you're doing the right thing.
He went to doggie heaven on March 7.....it was so difficult and we all cried so much.
I still miss him. I have his ashes on the mantle next to a puppy picture of him. Poor little guy...I am getting choked up just thinking about him.
You will get choked up for a while Moldy ... and it will get easier to talk about ... but don't think about it in a bad way ... just remember the good times and smile ... you had a long time together and he graced your live with love while he was here ...
Well, its time for me to take my dog to the vet and have him put to sleep.
